Called to Serve...
From Atheist to Ordained Minister…
Dear Friends and fellow "inward journey" travelers,
Life was not easy growing up as an atheist. It was lonely and secretive and didn't make sense to me. Despite my mother's belief, in my heart I knew that atheism wasn't the Truth and that it definitely wasn't my path, so I adopted the label of agnostic and from that void of any belief system I began my spiritual quest.
Finally finding a belief system that made sense felt serendipitous at the time, but I now know that my life path was always leading me here—even the part about spending my youth as a “tabula rasa” ...untainted by any doctrine or dogma. Plus, Spirit had given me all those human opportunities to grow and be ready for this Divine Appointment, nudging me to the edge and then giving me the final push.
After finding this New Thought spirituality, I knew my search was over because it resonated so deeply and completely with everything in my heart. After completing classes and practitioner licensing, I felt another nudge from Spirit—this time: the call to ministry.
Hearing this call, but not feeling at all qualified, I resisted. Finally, my intuition told me that "God does not call the qualified, God qualifies the called." With skill and experience in teaching, leadership and management, communications and human relations, I entered ministerial school with great enthusiasm and determination, absolutely certain that this was my path and trusting that my Source would not guide me to do anything without also preparing me for the task.
During those years in training, the actual form this ministry would take was unclear. However, it never occured to me~even for a moment~that I would become a pulpit minister...even proclaiming that I did NOT want a "four-walls church."
The Universe, however, laughs at our plans and now, as a graduate of two ministerial programs~both Holmes Institute/Centers for Spiritual Living and the Emerson Theological Institute~and also having earned my Doctorate of Religious Studies and Doctorate of Divinity, Shiloh Spiritual Center became a sweet space for people to gather and immerse themselves in metaphysics. It was definitely, a "four-walls" spiritual center for 14+ years.
Update: At the end of 2016, Shiloh's "four walls" location was vacated and we have become a traveling spiritual center, using various sites-first around the greater San Diego area and now on the California Coast-some sites indoors, some in nature's sanctuary. We now own a mobile unit that I suppose could be called a rolling four walls, but we know it as our counseling center and classroom. Please check our calendar page] for what we're doing, as well as when and where we'll be...
...meeting you on your journey.
Shiloh is now in its 15th year of service wherever we find ourselves and it continues to morph into its higher calling. I don't know what it will look like, I only know that this work is not yet finished because I still feel "called." May we cross paths soon and journey together.